Inside myself

Inside myself... I find comfort. I enjoy the inner calm and stillness. It feels like nothing else. Peaceful and serene; I think it is the best feeling in the word.

The only path to self discovery is through you. Time is all it takes, and a willingness to embrace your whole self and do the work necessary to make yourself well. No one can take that from you.

It was just a few days for me to realize what needed to be fixed and to set goals to achieve the peace within me and take steps to ensure my self worth isn't shattered again.

Trust and respect are earned and I am not wiling to take anything less. Healthy boundaries and I know I love myself enough to make it work... for me... no one else.

I am not going to rush the process. I am worth the time it takes to decide what I need, want and deserve. Once the process of self acceptance is achieved, nothing will stop me. This doesn't mean I forget what the cause was, however I can forgive.

I had to do that so many times... time yet again. This is not to say I am not still going to get angry or upset just not as I am me... this feels like the most productive transformation. This means I am taking the reins of my life... my feelings and my will.

There has been so so much and fortunately I witnessed enough good in my life to be able to have a baseline for goodness. Thanks Uncle Keith and Nannie. I love you as you have taught me love.

Never give up and really dig deep into yourself and find your bright light and shine like never before.

Love and Light as always

Wandalynn

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