The Cost of Freedom

When you are in love with someone who is not good for you, you have to make a life changing decision which will affect you for years to come.

All the hopes and dreams you had or even hoped for are now gone, time to heal. Just once in my life I have needed and wanted to find someone who shared the same interests and like similar things, I was just a bit off target.

I know one day I will find my soul mate, just when is the question?? I hoped for this man who I loved dearly but for some reason we just couldn't see eye to eye on many things.

Sometimes things happen because there supposed to and I'm good with that. I could go on and on how much of a bad person he was but instead I'd rather remember the good things. He is a human being...

My life will change for the better now and I am grateful for the lessons I have learned from him. Everything I ever was will be me again, I am so happy to have the chance to become whole again.

Without all the missing parts of my beliefs, my friends, my love of life and having fun... this is here once more!
All of my hopes and dreams do not have to include a man, I sacrifice way too much of myself to do that again.

Now is the time to work on me, become the fun loving easy going person I once was and live life the way I want to instead of someone Else's vision of life. It will cost a lot to be free; companionship, fun loving relationship, cuddling, the I love yous, hugs, kisses, and all the other little things that come with a healthy relationship, which is why I didn't and couldn't accept this one in the first place. None of that existed and these are things that all human beings need.

I can't be serious all the time, stay stuck in the house all the time, be a prisoner of someones non-compromising
attitude.

Things are going to be great, and I am so looking forward to my new life....

Love and Light as Always

Amber 

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