Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like I want to be another person. Living with my Illness is a hard thing...
But then I think; I am a special unique person. I have such a range of emotion... and have been working on this for such a long time...

Taking things one day at a time and never believing in what I was made to believe. I still can be someone; even-though I am going to be turning 42. Someway; somehow I will, I will succeed...

Some times are good some times are bad but I know deep in my spirit that one day soon things will be so much better. Deep down within there is a flower waiting to blossom into that enduring bulb that will grow bigger and stronger each-time it re-emerges.

Life and living are two different things and I want to Live; live life to the very fullest. Life is too short to dwell on things we can not change and one day I will have that life I deserve and so desire.

Sometimes you need to just displace the negative people who try to belittle you or make fun of you; too many people are run down by others. Growing a thicker skin isn't the answer... it's trying to cope and sit with your emotions, make them a integrated part of you instead of wanting them to just disappear.

Some of the most brilliant people in the world have major problems and they have made it to the life they so deserve... so can I.

Sometimes you just have to take a big breath and let it out... and the stress seems to melt away. You or I don;t have to do it alone... Support one another and be grateful for the ones you have. Even if it just one person...

Change is difficult but not impossible... I would love to see people get along; but in the case of clashing personalities it makes things difficult. Don't throw people out of your life because you don't understand...

Sometimes I find just a genuine smile or a simple Hello can make many feel better and not be so hard on themselves... Lifting others up is always a great thing to do ... tearing people down is just wrong... in my opinion... Love one another what could be wrong with that?

Sometimes a little caring is all it takes :)

Love and Light

Wandalynn 

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