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Gratitude for the Men and Women of our Healthcare system.

To the Men and Women of the Nova Scotia Healthcare system I simply can not express the gratitude and thankfulness enough to these people. My name is Wanda Lynn Ellis (Boutilier) and I had been suffering for many years with C-PTSD, DEPRESSION, GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder), DD (Dissociate disorder) and DA (Dissociative Amnesia). I also suffered with seizures (non-epileptic), going blind temporarily, and could not control my impulses all the while my brain or eyes was seeing it happen. ... This is called Functional Neurological Disorder.  I suffered a lot, with such pain that I am surprised I withstood it. I was alone in life with the exception of a controlling boyfriend or husband, no family, no friends. When I started the healing process is when the seizures started happening, right after reading having the courage to heal. When no one knows the abuse you are enduring, they judge and look down on you. My responses were caused by unnatural acts caused by others. While I
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The Ill effects of Vicarious Trauma no one talks about.

The Ill effects of Vicarious Trauma no one talks about.   I want to start out by saying that not all people who suffer ill effects of vicarious trauma are therapists and people in the helping professions, In many cases it also effects friends or family, people who are supporting those with traumatic pasts or helping someone with an illness whether it's friends, family, police, fire, ambulance, Dr, nurses or clinicians and many more.   It is a hard thing to deal with when you have to look after others or treat others going through a hard time with illness or injury. I don't believe we understand the ramifications of not practicing good self care and time off. The helpers need helpers.    Many times, people suffer greatly.These symptoms are a type of PTSD.  Sleep disturbance. Change in behaviors. Eating habits are disrupted. Emotional disturbances, sadness, anxiety, grief, depression etc. Physical illness, headaches, stomach upset, body aches and pain.
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Abuse of Power - The workplace epidemic.

Abuse of Power -  The workplace epidemic. It's astonishing how many of us have come across Bullies, Micromanagers, Passive aggressive, control freak bosses.  Whether it's gossip, hovering over your every move, embarrassing or belittling you in front of other staff, most of us can say we have had these experiences. Some of us stay at these toxic workplaces for far too long and it makes us sick. Either we burn out, get depressed and anxious, or even are manipulated and gas lighted so bad we begin to lose our sense of esteem and lose productivity.  There are many forms of Abuse of Power, I had the experience of dealing with this behavior most of my working life. Through, sexual harassment and assault, bullying,  gossip, being belittled in front of others, having my job and or hours held above my head just because they could.  For anyone to have that much power and control over someones well being and financial safety is totally wrong and things need to chan
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Empathy

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When you feel you are no good to anyone, unless you are helping. I can tell you from my point of view, which others can and do make you, feel that way. This may not be purposeful but it still has the exact same outcome. For some people, it is purposeful. In this stage of my life, I don’t care very much anymore about much of what others may think of me. Many night’s some of us sit and cry, wondering if anything or anyone is going to work out. Is it true I am the fault of each and everything that I have endured? Why, yes it is … you chose to stay in the mess … want to know why? Sometimes you enter into a relationship too open and too trusting. This friend is a mistake, but I must say that sometimes circumstances are the biggest part of the problem. When people are on the margins of society they have to do what is necessary to survive. Can you imagine living in a car or in a tent? Can you put yourself in the shoes of that person who has no home?
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Practice is important.

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What are the reasons for with-holding Medical Cannabis access?

These are the reasons why I believe people are held back from Medical Cannabis. *For thousands of years people have been using Cannabis. In 1923, Cannabis was made illegal. People were given no reason why this plant was made illegal. However, I believe it is all money driven. What do we use on a daily basis? Some of the main things are paper, clothing, oils, rope, etcetera. Hemp not to be confused with the high THC strain known as Cannabis, can be used to make all of these things and also, promote good health. This hemp oil has a near perfect oil structure. I believe that competitive business drove this extremely useful plant out. On the medical side of things using the high THC level or high CBD levels are with-held by certain companies if you can not afford the amount of money you need for your medicine. Now, being able to have access and being able to afford it are two different issues. One, if you can't have access, if your situation changes and you can afford it
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Tracking myself on medical Cannabis.

Two years ago I was prescribed medical Cannabis. We tried everything to treat my PTSD and Depression. The clonazapam I was on was very good at treating my seizures, movements and some of the other dissociative symptoms. No one told me that this drug was a drug in which you could become physically dependent. Since being on Cannabis I have noticed that I have more control over my triggers. For Cannabis to work, you need to be in a positive and supportive environment. When you are in a bad environment the intended result will not be achieved. The desired effect is bring your down back up, be able to have more control over your reactions. These are just some of the things that have been helped through Cannabis. 1 . When I in a place that you would be triggered by behavior, nuances and over all feel of a specific place, I am more calm, little sleepy but overall in a better place. I have had to get used to people tormenting ... Joking. It sometimes doesn't feel like a joke. 2
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